i spoke to clyde's best friend's girlfriend today...she called to see if i wanted to go to eric's suprise party...i'm thinking about maybe showing up...but i really don't know yet...i don't know if i can see him and not want to fuck him up...so, anyway, sonny did the sweetest thing on saturday night...catherine, amy, and i went to late night after we finished at live...sonny was working and i was talking to him...he walked outside and i was standing there talking to amy...somehow he came from behind me and held a rose in his hand as he wrapped his arms around me...it was the sweetest thing...especially after the drama on friday...i was feeling pretty shitty and he managed to cheer me up...but what sucks is that i lost the fucking thing!...i held on to it the whole night and even in the car ride home...but when i got into my car and drove off it was gone...i thought maybe catherine took it by accident, but she said she couldn't find it anywhere and amy didn't find it in her car either...weird...i think it blew out the window when i was putting my seatbelt on in amy's car...dammit...saturday was fun...catherine's friend was bartending so we got pretty fucked up...i was dancing up on the bar in front of the dj...he was an old fat guy, but he was pretty cool...he was saying something about live strip club and making comments...anyway...we get to shakespeare's and i'm standing there talking to sonny and guess who walks in?? the freaking dj!! i swear i almost died right then and there...he looked at sonny and looked at me and then he came over and said something about me shaking my ass in his face...sonny just laughed and said that he knows how i am...good times, good times :):):)